Living Well: Conquering Phobias

Phobias are fears we learn in childhood.

When I was 3, I went to bed and on the way – I paused to kiss my dolly in her carriage goodnight.

But the doll wasn’t alone. There was a large spider on her face.

unsure of what it was, I called for my Mom.

 

I starred it and then I heard my Moms step in the hall and she stopped behind me.

 

then gasped in fear

 

I turned to look at her

 

then back to the now running thing that disappeared

 

well.

 

no way was I going to bed in a room with a thing that scared my Mom.

 

my Dad searched for a long time, unsuccessful and yet unable to convince me it was a harmless garden bug.

 

Making a last plea I said “just check under my pillow.”

 

sure enough; eh?

 

I am sure that I slept on the couch for a week.

 

 

Since I became fully agoraphobic in August 2010, my relationship with spiders has changed a lot. they are an astonishing species that borders on extremophile.

 

Anyway.

 

My Mom just came all upset at me because the vacuum cleaner is downstairs and there was a huge spider on the ceiling.

 

the most feared place for the frigging things to be, seriously eh!

 

anyway.

 

I took the broom that my Mom feared wasn’t firm enough

 

when I saw the blurry thing I was suddenly glad to not be wearing my glasses

 

with an upward stroke, I flipped that thing off the ceiling and onto the underside of the broom.

 

the spider did a daring web leap, but I was faster and made it bounce off the wooden chair

 

where slippers with rubber soles make quick work of the stunned

 

they are a rather delicate species who doesn’t take the bumps and jostles well.

 

 

being xenophobic is natural. Mine was expressed by my fear of what I called

 

The Three S’  – spiders, snakes and sharks

 

call it limb bias

 

in any case

 

I have learned that there is only 1 species to fear

 

the one I belong to and no longer anthropomorphize

 

homo sapiens

 

 

homo = same

 

there are no subspecies.

 

racism is stupid and how the uneducated express their xenophobia

 

 

 

 

 

 

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