March 16 2013
Agoraphobic Diary March 16, 2013
so the thing that I didn’t talk about yesterday ….
is the terror that I had to face by going to Richmond.
When I stopped being able to predict how people would behave towards me
I also lost my confidence in myself to do anything and especially driving
because if there’s one thing that you need to concentrate on in your day
for people who don’t know the lower mainland of British Columbia
there’s a lot of bridges
and I had to travel on one that holds a particular terror for me.
1. because I do not like to be in the city of Richmond because it’s below sea level and basically a big sand bar in the river.
in my estimate, if an earthquake of 6.5 or greater is centred on the GVRD, Richmond will simply disappear. liquefaction. gone from existence.
2. I am afraid of the Annacis Island bridge – because it’s got such wide and many lanes – people drive like maniacs on it more than any other bridge that I have had to endure – and I have had to endure Patullo and Port Mann since 2003 and Lions Gate/Second Narrows for a lot of years before that.
not to mention that horrible Oak street… Granville and Burrard. Seriously…..
but there’s another reason why I experience fear of the Annacis bridge
a couple of years ago, there was a really horrific multi car accident
in which one man was … well, the fire was so intense he basically incinerated before .. hopefully before – his brain could register the pain.
there were several cars and the fire was so intense that they called out structureal engineers to assess the bridge before re-opening it.
now. I did not know the man who was killed.
but he was an employee of my cousin and a co-worker of my sister’s.
this is why the tone and style of the news and media is a problem
they sensationalize and if it bleeds, it leads
there is no thought to the humane aspect
now. this is in Canada – so
I once watched a live mid day news broadcast about an elderly woman who had been mugged
I don’t know how or why, but the news camera was on the scene LITERALLY before she was even picked up off the ground
the anchor said sincerely, “some people might object to this footage, but we’re bringing it to you live.”
and while they might have a right to do that
THEY DO NOT HAVE A RIGHT TO INTERFERE with anyone like that
because the camera crew was actually in the way of the ambulance crew
so I spent 30 minutes on the phone with the news program producer
and had to explain that saying “we know this is wrong but we are doing it anyway” does not make it right
and that is a true story
but the really funny part is that I was at work at the time of the broadcast and call
I was the manager of an adult video store.
a porn peddler with more ethics than a television news producer……..
life is funny like that.
well. this one would be and I am now 210 pounds for an estimate 150 pound loss assuming I wasn’t more than 360, which I am pretty sure I was….