barbara findlay is still active in the Vancouver Queer Community last spring 2012, I haven’t chatted with her since then.
I remember being at a December Nine Coalition meeting with barbara and many others after her recovery from the double surgeries – and thinking about women I have know who have had hysterectomies.
These sorts of life events not only make one feel betrayed by their body, but their gender identity becomes questioned.
How do you feel like a woman when you lack the usual hallmarks of womanhood?
cultural constructs are one thing, physical realities another.
I know I was always more scared of the diabetic tests than any AIDS test I took.
I have been in a number of car accidents over the years, soft tissue and shaken brain concussion injuries.
not being able to parse people’s emotions and tone of voice
I feel like I had a stroke or have dementia sometimes and it scares me
being assured these are not conditions is of little help when the confusion doesn’t go away
I know its’ because I can’t concentrate and focus my thoughts
emotions well and ebb
swell and drain
here comes the rain again