dreams – day dreams and night dreams
imagination, fantasy, desires, anxieties, wishes hopes and wants
practise runs for possible events and flights of fancy
all things our brains to to maintain their interest while we sleep and the brain performs a range of mainatence
most of our body healing happens during sleep and also memory management – short term to long term
thick and thin memories, facts, emotions, perceptions, sensory data all fragmented and indexed by the lazy gnome librarian that manages… sorta.. our memories
she says resistance is futile, yet.. she resists…
when helpers are tormentors…
processing the process….
sometimes it’s hard to recognize when changes are good until you push through them
and having fewer distressors is better, even when the main distressor remains
lowering stress includes fewer things to stress about as much as keeping stress in proportion to circumstances and being mindful of your span of control and sphere of influence.
but it’s seeing the possibility of a future that one wants to belong to that gives you something or someone to look forward to.
I had to stop dreaming because all I had was nightmares from so many sources and on so many fronts.
This week, I have started to daydream.
maybe soon, I will start to dream again
and maybe then, my memory dysfunction of improper recall of my own life and what words mean will resolve
meditation mindfulness of monkey minded associations, steam train or playful leaps
who I was is not who I will be
I am becoming
and it’s odd to realize
in more ways than one