The Parking Lot of Thoughts

I Am bradly Manning

 

Whatever I am safe in my home and I can be Elvis any time I need to

Whatever
I am safe in my home
and I can be Elvis any time I need to

 

I am working through cat grief issues Agoraphobic Philosopher - future crazy cat lady artwork by Lorne Szmek

I am working through cat grief issues
Agoraphobic Philosopher – future crazy cat lady
artwork by Lorne Szmek

 

I am working through failed dreams issues

I am working through
failed dreams issues

 

Failed aspirations.....

Failed aspirations…..

so instead

I take a breath and think and focus

what have I done lately?

 Update - 155 pounds, reversed diabetes, eliminated sleep apena and learned to control panic attacks Agoraphobic Diary stepped on the scale today and I have now lost 135 pounds by eating raw/vegetarian foods with a small portion of grain based foods the photo of my in the white shirt is my 44th birthday and the close up is a recent image


Update – 155 pounds, reversed diabetes, eliminated sleep apena and learned to control panic attacks
Agoraphobic Diary
stepped on the scale today and I have now lost 135 pounds by eating raw/vegetarian foods with a small portion of grain based foods
the photo of my in the white shirt is my 44th birthday
and the close up is a recent image

 

Well. I became a vegetarian and I have lost 155 pounds and thankfully I hit a plateau so now I can focus on getting exercise and shaping and toning

because I have a ways to go for physical recovery and my mind and body need to stay more in touch and not let one race ahead of the other

and I still have my stuttering to get back under control at my new improved social comfort level.

I finally feel comfortable talking to the parents. SCORE ME
so I have talked myself into going to the group outing tomorrow.

because no matter what.

You can’t let the bullies win.

when you don’t act like you

that’s what you are allowing.

There is no reason to sit alone and exist in a state of terror.

There is no reason to site alone and exist in a state of anxiety

It is okay to be nervous and uncomfortable and that is what you need to pay attention to in order to identify when you are playing with the comfort and discomfort zone lines

you don;t always have to be at the edge. there is no race. this is a learn as you go at your own pace.

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1 Response to The Parking Lot of Thoughts

  1. dykewriter says:

    I don;t know that there is a more powerful motivator for me than seeing that image of me on my 44th birthday

    i was sure I was days from a fatal heart attack and I ate ice cream cake but I took several days to eat those marzipan penguins. they were so cute that I just loved to look at them,. I think they were the only thing that made me happy… and I ate them…..

    and seeing that image of me at 45. It really doesn’t look like the same person to me

    and I am both of them.

    Like

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