That I was nervous about sharing that, demonstrated to me that what I need most is to talk about me.
so that’s a bit part of why I share what I share
my thoughts were totally disordered and my sub and conscious and creative minds – dreams and states – blood sugared is an altered state too – as is panic and terror modes
anyway – in intentionally stimulating a wider range and specific emotional journeys with movies and television
being able to correctly parse them – is what’s been allowing my return to reality
which, as I said, I have never been that attached to
as a writer
as a photographer
as a performer
as a creative person
I don’t interact like everyone else with reality
anyway, that’s a side bar
writing and dictatyping are 2 different skills
automatic writing is merely stream of consciousness
Virigina Woolf did it in purple ink
I can type as fast as I can think
I have been in a catatonic shock
doing my own facilitated communication
because I was a legal secretary
who learned how to dicta type
it’s partly how I can write a 3 day novel and screenplays quickly
I have lost my train of thought. I am playing Adele – I heard her for the first time last year and this is the first time I have played her in months.
her emotional tones were too overwhelming when I had higher levels of hypersensitivity.
ummm. got to go.
(Stephanie messaged me and said they would come to me!)