When I was a child, I was taller than my peers. but not actually out of proportion with my weight.
I was teased for being bigger.
We moved from New Westminster to Chilliwhack just after I started 8th grade
it was a culture shock to move from an urban area to a rural one – and no longer be able to head off to the movies or the park or anywhere I wanted to go
we had a farm on Keith Wilson Road, 3 miles from anywhere and no transit system
I went from a high school of 3000 students to only 800 – most of whom, were going up in the same house they were born in.
I had already lived in Vancouver, Richmond and New Westminster before Chilliwack.
I became fat in high school because of depression.
The loss of my routine and friends – the access to self entertain and activities.
Starting over is hard.
I was also teased for being a dyke – mostly based on that I included Olivia Newton-John in the mix of mostly male celebrities in my locker montage.
Being teased for being fat was hurtful, but the teasing about being queer didn’t
mostly because .. well I knew that gay men existed, but I didn’t really know that lesbians existed because when I was 5, my Mom told me that women didn’t feel that way about other women.
so these kids at school had no idea what they were talking about, right?
sure. I came out at 23.
I didn’t date in high school or college or university.
so when I watched Bridesmaids last year – the line about slutty college years, was really funny to me
because when I was at Simon Fraser University, which is sometimes called Super Feminist University
it seemed like every third woman told me they were a lesbian
to which I would respond positively and then return the conversation to whatever topic they had inserted this non-sequiter into.
yeah. I was that big a dork and oblivious….
Nina in review – 2012